Just a rainy day here in Pittsburgh. Yep. All day.
I walked the dog.
I made curried oven-roasted potatoes.
I walked the dog.
I exercised on the treadmill.
I went to the grocery store.
I went to a meeting.
Hard to believe that took up a whole day.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
brownies
Oh, bliss! I have found and made Cherrybrook Kitchen fudge brownies. Go to www.cherrybrookkitchen.com and you too can find lovely goodies that are dairy, egg, and nut free. And they also make gluten free mixes too. Yes, kids, I'm sorry to say, it was a mix. But, it makes a morish brownie. I had to offer them for sharing so as not to eat them all. I have a chocolate chip cookie mix in the cupboard.
And, if I hoard my little upc symbols I can get cool Cherrybrook Kitchen merchandise. For the cost of postage, naturally.
It makes me happy to have brownies.
I decorated the house today. My ceramic tree is up, some of my houses are out, I put up two wreaths, and I dusted off my snow globes. It has been four years since I decorated for Christmas. Not since my girlfriend died. Something shifted this year and I wanted to decorate. So I did. It feels a little like picking a scab (sorry) but it also feels like I found pink skin underneath.
And, if I hoard my little upc symbols I can get cool Cherrybrook Kitchen merchandise. For the cost of postage, naturally.
It makes me happy to have brownies.
I decorated the house today. My ceramic tree is up, some of my houses are out, I put up two wreaths, and I dusted off my snow globes. It has been four years since I decorated for Christmas. Not since my girlfriend died. Something shifted this year and I wanted to decorate. So I did. It feels a little like picking a scab (sorry) but it also feels like I found pink skin underneath.
Friday, November 28, 2008
soup for me!
I made turkey soup from the bones of the Thanksgiving turkey. It is quite good. I put cumin in it so I wasn't sure how it would turn out. I've never heard of cumin in turkey soup but I like cumin. I use it a lot. Curry too. I put barley in it. The kind that takes like an hour of hard boiling to cook. Plus all the regular things like celery, onions, peas, corn....
I got rave reviews except that it wasn't salty enough. So...add salt!
I did NOT go shopping today. No. I try not to.
I did however, walk my dog and then do two miles on the treadmill. I have been asked why I do both...especially in the same day. So, here's why: walking the dog is a peaceful, leisurely activity wherein the dog sniffs and I look around. Sometimes the dog points out interesting things for me to look at. Like squirrels and other dogs and people. Sometimes I find things to look at all by myself. But the point of these outings is to be present in the world around me, to enjoy the vargaries of the weather and to connect with my dog.
When I am on the treadmill I am turned inward. There isn't much to look at so I close dmy eyes. I listen to my body and I feel it working. I think in a different mode. I am working on a different *part* of me during each activity.
That is why I use the treadmill and walk the dog in the same day.
I went to a meeting which is very dear to me and saw people who are very dear to me and then went to coffee with a friend who is also very dear to me.
Now it is late and I am tired.
Tomorrow's agenda: decorate for the holidays and bake some chocolate chip cookies (dairy free).
I got rave reviews except that it wasn't salty enough. So...add salt!
I did NOT go shopping today. No. I try not to.
I did however, walk my dog and then do two miles on the treadmill. I have been asked why I do both...especially in the same day. So, here's why: walking the dog is a peaceful, leisurely activity wherein the dog sniffs and I look around. Sometimes the dog points out interesting things for me to look at. Like squirrels and other dogs and people. Sometimes I find things to look at all by myself. But the point of these outings is to be present in the world around me, to enjoy the vargaries of the weather and to connect with my dog.
When I am on the treadmill I am turned inward. There isn't much to look at so I close dmy eyes. I listen to my body and I feel it working. I think in a different mode. I am working on a different *part* of me during each activity.
That is why I use the treadmill and walk the dog in the same day.
I went to a meeting which is very dear to me and saw people who are very dear to me and then went to coffee with a friend who is also very dear to me.
Now it is late and I am tired.
Tomorrow's agenda: decorate for the holidays and bake some chocolate chip cookies (dairy free).
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving
Happy Thanksgiving!
Sorry I missed posting yesterday. I was busy cooking.
Yep. I'm thankful. All the usual stuff. health, dogs, rat, warm sweaters, house, food. yep.
I get to teach this stuff every year. And it makes me cry and my students don't understand. *Why are you crying Marjie?* Well, my little five year old friends, I am crying because we celebrate a holiday thanking god and this is right and good. Yes, my friends we should thank the Higher Powers of our lives for the good and the fruitful. We must also learn to thank our Higher Powers for things that we don't actually find so sweet. But that is a more advanced trick. Level 3 or something.
But, I digress. You see, what makes me cry is that some hundreds of men women and children left Plymouth, England and sailed for a new life in this land we now occupy. Well, by the end of their first winter here they were down by half. There were about 50 of them left. Mostly children. The children and I had a good conversation about this. See, they are five and they are invincible. So, if they were in a brave new world they would be able to do what was needed. Feed the chickens, carry wood, carry water, mind the baby, etc. They could have and they would have. But what we also read/discussed was that part of the reason our dear pilgrims made it through that first winter was that they found a stash of corn left when the indian tribe who had lived there all died of probably smallpox. No one knows. The English who had kidnapped Squanto left behind something that the native peoples of this continent had no resistance to. So, when our dear pilgrims arrived sick (scurvy) and weary and starving they discovered the stores of the decimated tribe. Would they too sicken and die. No, of course not silly. They came from the disease-ridden cities of England and they were immune. They might lose a child or two but those who grew to *manhood* were immune. So, they survive the winter thanks to the natives that they killed. (Well, okay, they didn't kill those natives personally.) And in their defense one source we read said that they agreed they must *pay* the indians back for the corn they ate. And they ate 5-6 kernels of corn a day. So they weren't having a feast. And they do set up a peace treaty with the Naragansett tribe which lasts for the next 50 years. By which time those who took part in the deal were most likely dead.
The worst part, I think, is the part where Squanto comes to the village alone. Look, he saw smoke from his old village. What would you think? Oh, sweet Mother Earth! Someone is there. Someone came back! And then he goes there and finds the same *nation* of people who had kidnapped him! What does he do? He helps them! He shows them where to hunt and how. These folks could not hunt. Even the ones who could shoot came from a place where hunting was called poaching. And it was a punishable offense. Not going out on a limb here. I don't know what the punishment was really. I seem to remember it could have been death. Not sure. If you know, tell me. So, here they are in a world without butchers or bakers or landlords and now they must hunt or starve. So, this guy, this *savage* as they called him, teaches them how to hunt, where to hunt, how to fish, how to get clams and other edible sealife. He saved their sorry asses from starvation cause they didn't even have any corn to plant and they didn't know if the seed they brought from England would grow here. Sheesh! Squanto shared with these poor slobs the bounty of his land because he did not come from a tradition where one owns the land. The bounty of the Earth was there for all to live. This as opposed to a land where shooting a rabbit for dinner got ya in big trouble. At the least the gamekeeper probably had the right to shoot you. But, do we include this information in what we generally teach children about Thanksgiving? No, not so much. But see, my kids are the indians at the big whole school feast. The threes and the fives are the indians because the indians at the first Thanksgiving outnumbered the Brits by 2-1. So, we always do a unit on who the indians were that met the pilgrims and who the indians were that lived here. Where we live. Where the Target stands. Where the fountain at the Point stands. Well, no tribe lived where the fountain at the Point stands. The land around Pittsburgh was hunting grounds for various tribes. So, while many tribes came through, set up hunting camps, fished, etc, none lived here. Huh! But we study the Iroquois Nation because there were the closest. We got this information form the Native Studies Dept at The University of Pittsburgh. I just went to my local library and asked for some help. Turned up no local tribes on maps, went to the History Museum, got given an email and a name at the Native Studies Dept. Went off email. Was given lovely information about no tirbes living on the hunting grounds and the Iroquois being indeed the closest tribe to the area. So, we learn about the Iroquois, we build long houses, we read about what they ate and played. That's important when you are five. We learn a bit about what they believe and how they worship. We let it sink in that we saved the sorry asses of those pathetic and totally unprepared Brits. And then we all remember that while we may not all actually be those Brits we actually all are European. At least this year.
Sorry I missed posting yesterday. I was busy cooking.
Yep. I'm thankful. All the usual stuff. health, dogs, rat, warm sweaters, house, food. yep.
I get to teach this stuff every year. And it makes me cry and my students don't understand. *Why are you crying Marjie?* Well, my little five year old friends, I am crying because we celebrate a holiday thanking god and this is right and good. Yes, my friends we should thank the Higher Powers of our lives for the good and the fruitful. We must also learn to thank our Higher Powers for things that we don't actually find so sweet. But that is a more advanced trick. Level 3 or something.
But, I digress. You see, what makes me cry is that some hundreds of men women and children left Plymouth, England and sailed for a new life in this land we now occupy. Well, by the end of their first winter here they were down by half. There were about 50 of them left. Mostly children. The children and I had a good conversation about this. See, they are five and they are invincible. So, if they were in a brave new world they would be able to do what was needed. Feed the chickens, carry wood, carry water, mind the baby, etc. They could have and they would have. But what we also read/discussed was that part of the reason our dear pilgrims made it through that first winter was that they found a stash of corn left when the indian tribe who had lived there all died of probably smallpox. No one knows. The English who had kidnapped Squanto left behind something that the native peoples of this continent had no resistance to. So, when our dear pilgrims arrived sick (scurvy) and weary and starving they discovered the stores of the decimated tribe. Would they too sicken and die. No, of course not silly. They came from the disease-ridden cities of England and they were immune. They might lose a child or two but those who grew to *manhood* were immune. So, they survive the winter thanks to the natives that they killed. (Well, okay, they didn't kill those natives personally.) And in their defense one source we read said that they agreed they must *pay* the indians back for the corn they ate. And they ate 5-6 kernels of corn a day. So they weren't having a feast. And they do set up a peace treaty with the Naragansett tribe which lasts for the next 50 years. By which time those who took part in the deal were most likely dead.
The worst part, I think, is the part where Squanto comes to the village alone. Look, he saw smoke from his old village. What would you think? Oh, sweet Mother Earth! Someone is there. Someone came back! And then he goes there and finds the same *nation* of people who had kidnapped him! What does he do? He helps them! He shows them where to hunt and how. These folks could not hunt. Even the ones who could shoot came from a place where hunting was called poaching. And it was a punishable offense. Not going out on a limb here. I don't know what the punishment was really. I seem to remember it could have been death. Not sure. If you know, tell me. So, here they are in a world without butchers or bakers or landlords and now they must hunt or starve. So, this guy, this *savage* as they called him, teaches them how to hunt, where to hunt, how to fish, how to get clams and other edible sealife. He saved their sorry asses from starvation cause they didn't even have any corn to plant and they didn't know if the seed they brought from England would grow here. Sheesh! Squanto shared with these poor slobs the bounty of his land because he did not come from a tradition where one owns the land. The bounty of the Earth was there for all to live. This as opposed to a land where shooting a rabbit for dinner got ya in big trouble. At the least the gamekeeper probably had the right to shoot you. But, do we include this information in what we generally teach children about Thanksgiving? No, not so much. But see, my kids are the indians at the big whole school feast. The threes and the fives are the indians because the indians at the first Thanksgiving outnumbered the Brits by 2-1. So, we always do a unit on who the indians were that met the pilgrims and who the indians were that lived here. Where we live. Where the Target stands. Where the fountain at the Point stands. Well, no tribe lived where the fountain at the Point stands. The land around Pittsburgh was hunting grounds for various tribes. So, while many tribes came through, set up hunting camps, fished, etc, none lived here. Huh! But we study the Iroquois Nation because there were the closest. We got this information form the Native Studies Dept at The University of Pittsburgh. I just went to my local library and asked for some help. Turned up no local tribes on maps, went to the History Museum, got given an email and a name at the Native Studies Dept. Went off email. Was given lovely information about no tirbes living on the hunting grounds and the Iroquois being indeed the closest tribe to the area. So, we learn about the Iroquois, we build long houses, we read about what they ate and played. That's important when you are five. We learn a bit about what they believe and how they worship. We let it sink in that we saved the sorry asses of those pathetic and totally unprepared Brits. And then we all remember that while we may not all actually be those Brits we actually all are European. At least this year.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
I'm back again
We are having snow. Big fat flakes of beautiful snow. It's not laying much but it's quite lovely.
I have all the ingredients for a dairy free Thanksgiving! I am very excited. There will be pie and stuffing and lots of yummy stuff. I'll be cooking it myself because of this:
Brother's Girlfriend: *I made this and it's dairy free.*
Me: *What did you put in it?*
B.G.: *Vegetables, noodles, and cream of mushroom soup.*
Me: *Yeah, what do you think the *cream* in cream of mushroom soup is made of?*
B.G.: *Oh, I didn't think of that.*
Yeah, so I'll be doing the cooking because I am looking forward to the eating.
And the breathing.
I have all the ingredients for a dairy free Thanksgiving! I am very excited. There will be pie and stuffing and lots of yummy stuff. I'll be cooking it myself because of this:
Brother's Girlfriend: *I made this and it's dairy free.*
Me: *What did you put in it?*
B.G.: *Vegetables, noodles, and cream of mushroom soup.*
Me: *Yeah, what do you think the *cream* in cream of mushroom soup is made of?*
B.G.: *Oh, I didn't think of that.*
Yeah, so I'll be doing the cooking because I am looking forward to the eating.
And the breathing.
Monday, November 24, 2008
day 3
Well, here's your third dose of me in three days.
Long day.
Cooking with 5 year olds.
Stuffing in the morning.
Pumpkin cake in the afternoon.
I can't eat any of it. It is all made with dairy.
But our school feast is tomorrow. We are the Naragansett.
We are not a glum lot. We have learned a lot about the native peoples of New England and Pittsburgh. And no, there were not any tribes living here at the time. Pittsburgh was the hunting grounds of various tribes.
And then, I went to the meeting of District 21, Area 60. If this is Greek, you're not in A.A. Nevermind.
But, I have been elected DCM (see previous post for explanation) for our district. I am conflicted. It is a big task.
But, there it is.
Long day.
Cooking with 5 year olds.
Stuffing in the morning.
Pumpkin cake in the afternoon.
I can't eat any of it. It is all made with dairy.
But our school feast is tomorrow. We are the Naragansett.
We are not a glum lot. We have learned a lot about the native peoples of New England and Pittsburgh. And no, there were not any tribes living here at the time. Pittsburgh was the hunting grounds of various tribes.
And then, I went to the meeting of District 21, Area 60. If this is Greek, you're not in A.A. Nevermind.
But, I have been elected DCM (see previous post for explanation) for our district. I am conflicted. It is a big task.
But, there it is.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
daily drivvel
Here I am, back again and I only posted yesterday. It would seem that lately I've been poting once a month. My goal is to up that.
Today's daily drivvel is all about food allergies. I am just getting over the last exposure to dairy. That happened on Wednesday. I ate out. Folks don't understand. I ate something that had dairy in it. See, some people think that only means like, *is there milk in it?* No. It means not only milk but butter, buttermilk, yogurt, cream, sour cream, cream cheese, ice cream, buttermilk, milk solids, whey, casien, yada, yada. The list is LONG. Many people who work in restaurants just simply do not know. So, therefore, I am done with eating out for now. I have not been able to breathe since Wednesday...okay, not breathe well or without wheezing. I can do a great Muttly inpression. Remember Muttly?
My stomach has been very unhappy too.
I have been discovering that the pain caused by ingesting an allergen is similar to hunger pains. At this point I am trying to distinguish between the two. Well, not at this exact moment because now I am feeling better. But over the past three days, I tried to figure out which it was. Was I successful? Well, no, but I had a revelation.
Back when I was a size 5 I ignored my bodies need for food and I ignored hunger pains. Silly body. Thinking I was going to feed her just because she was hungery. So, trying to stay healthy in a more self-loving way has been interesting in itself. I didn't put on that much weight. Only 10 pounds. But the similarity of the pain gave me a lot to think about. See, back when I was ignoring the pain I was ignoring the fact that not only was I not meeting the needs of my body but what I was eating was making me sick. But ignoring one kind of pain lead to ignoring other pain and lots of other problems as well. Like having to spend three hours in the allergists office because I was having an asthma attack which I was ignoring. I did that a lot too. Silly body. Thinking it should have air to breathe.
So, today, after the allergen invoked migraine went away I made curried oven-roasted potatoes and a tuna noodle dish. Safe and yummy. And I took the dog to the nature preserve and we walked in the frigid air. It never made it to 30 degrees today.
So, I'm paying attention now and I feel better. Let's try to keep it that way.
Today's daily drivvel is all about food allergies. I am just getting over the last exposure to dairy. That happened on Wednesday. I ate out. Folks don't understand. I ate something that had dairy in it. See, some people think that only means like, *is there milk in it?* No. It means not only milk but butter, buttermilk, yogurt, cream, sour cream, cream cheese, ice cream, buttermilk, milk solids, whey, casien, yada, yada. The list is LONG. Many people who work in restaurants just simply do not know. So, therefore, I am done with eating out for now. I have not been able to breathe since Wednesday...okay, not breathe well or without wheezing. I can do a great Muttly inpression. Remember Muttly?
My stomach has been very unhappy too.
I have been discovering that the pain caused by ingesting an allergen is similar to hunger pains. At this point I am trying to distinguish between the two. Well, not at this exact moment because now I am feeling better. But over the past three days, I tried to figure out which it was. Was I successful? Well, no, but I had a revelation.
Back when I was a size 5 I ignored my bodies need for food and I ignored hunger pains. Silly body. Thinking I was going to feed her just because she was hungery. So, trying to stay healthy in a more self-loving way has been interesting in itself. I didn't put on that much weight. Only 10 pounds. But the similarity of the pain gave me a lot to think about. See, back when I was ignoring the pain I was ignoring the fact that not only was I not meeting the needs of my body but what I was eating was making me sick. But ignoring one kind of pain lead to ignoring other pain and lots of other problems as well. Like having to spend three hours in the allergists office because I was having an asthma attack which I was ignoring. I did that a lot too. Silly body. Thinking it should have air to breathe.
So, today, after the allergen invoked migraine went away I made curried oven-roasted potatoes and a tuna noodle dish. Safe and yummy. And I took the dog to the nature preserve and we walked in the frigid air. It never made it to 30 degrees today.
So, I'm paying attention now and I feel better. Let's try to keep it that way.
Friday, November 21, 2008
All the odd bits
Okay, it's been a while. It always is. Maybe I should try to post more. Just the stupid day to day stuff. Then my few readers could be bored daily but it wouldn't last so long. Okay, I'm in a weird, very calm mood.
So, I'm still coming to terms with the food allergies stuff. There seems to be a process. Isn't there a process for everything? I HOPE I'm moving into acceptance. It's just stupid to eat things that make me ill and compromise my breathing. Just stupid.
My surgery, I mentioned that didn't I? Well, it went well. Although it will be 2-3 weeks more before things finish healing. So says my doctor. And another 2-3 months before the full impact of the surgery will be known. It was an endometrial ablation. See, I did know what it was really called.
Life has gotten busy. I have been trying to help get our A.A. district active again. We have LOTS of meetings and all...we just aren't active in the wider service structure of A.A. So, we're trying to change that. This means that I MIGHT be elected DCM (district committee member) for our district. I don't think I really want it but...I'll do it for the recommended 2 years should I get elected. Not fussing about it, not really, it's jsut that it's a big job. There will be an alternate DCM who should help with the tasks required. We shall see.
There really is so much that I'm having a hard time remembering it all. Maybe I should poet more often.
It is REALLY winter here. It was 20 degress the last time I heard. And snowing.
And Daisy the Dog is learning to hold a stay when the doorbell rings. I think this is actually doable. She does it near the door. The task now is to more further away. It's a work in progress.
More tomorrow.
So, I'm still coming to terms with the food allergies stuff. There seems to be a process. Isn't there a process for everything? I HOPE I'm moving into acceptance. It's just stupid to eat things that make me ill and compromise my breathing. Just stupid.
My surgery, I mentioned that didn't I? Well, it went well. Although it will be 2-3 weeks more before things finish healing. So says my doctor. And another 2-3 months before the full impact of the surgery will be known. It was an endometrial ablation. See, I did know what it was really called.
Life has gotten busy. I have been trying to help get our A.A. district active again. We have LOTS of meetings and all...we just aren't active in the wider service structure of A.A. So, we're trying to change that. This means that I MIGHT be elected DCM (district committee member) for our district. I don't think I really want it but...I'll do it for the recommended 2 years should I get elected. Not fussing about it, not really, it's jsut that it's a big job. There will be an alternate DCM who should help with the tasks required. We shall see.
There really is so much that I'm having a hard time remembering it all. Maybe I should poet more often.
It is REALLY winter here. It was 20 degress the last time I heard. And snowing.
And Daisy the Dog is learning to hold a stay when the doorbell rings. I think this is actually doable. She does it near the door. The task now is to more further away. It's a work in progress.
More tomorrow.
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